| Gettin back to normal |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|10:54 pm] |
Ok so we are just under of week of the beard shaving mistake...We are making some serious progress people....
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| and so it continues.... |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|10:51 pm] |
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and so it continues......My brain ever wandering...my heart ever needing...Content is not an acceptable answer...Content is only a bandage...Sooner or later all bandages must come off......
Russ |
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| Beardless |
[Aug. 2nd, 2008|10:48 am] |
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Ok so I got the bright idea to shave off the beard...Have no fear it is in the process of growing back as we speak. I have been called a little boy without it...Yikes..You be the judge...Do i look like a little boy?
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| Winding Road |
[Aug. 2nd, 2008|10:44 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | in the AC | ] |
| [ | mood |
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I have learned that you can't change life. So you must change as life changes around you. You must adapt to what is. and what isin't. However hard this maybe doesn't matter. Its life and its gonna change and you can't stop it or make it change the way you want it to.
Russ |
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[Jul. 21st, 2008|09:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Beardance | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | music |
| | something techno | ] |
I hate when you drink too much and don't remember the pics you take......I think I had fun? LOL |
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| Monday |
[Jul. 21st, 2008|09:50 pm] |
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Had a terrible Monday. Ended with a talk with a friend......which made it all better..... thanks |
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| A good comment from a Great guy |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|11:48 am] |
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A friend of mine was talking to me last night and he said something that hit home. The comment speaks for the both of us. He said unrequited love is the worst feeling. He is soo right!! But there is nothing that you can do about it. You have to love what you've got. Don't chase something that doesn't wanna be chased.
I'm glad we had our little chat last night man. Its comforting to know that I'm not in this alone.
I'm outta here. I'm gonna go enjoy my weekend and love what loves me back.......
Russ |
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| YOU YOU YOU |
[Jul. 15th, 2008|09:03 pm] |
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It's not ALWAYS about YOU!!!!! |
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| How I feel |
[Jul. 12th, 2008|12:58 am] |
These are lyrics to a song. If you read them then you will know HOW I FEEL right now at this very moment.....
A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But,love remains the same
I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same
So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play
We - we could have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change
I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
as if this could last forever
Love remains the same
Love remains the same
Now who makes me feel this way?..thats the question....... |
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| ugh!!!!! |
[Jul. 8th, 2008|10:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My couch | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
Why do I care soo damn much....When this person is down I get down. When they are happy I am happy...What does that mean. God why can't I detach myself from this....I just wanna shake it and move on...But I can't.... UGH!!!!!!!
Off to bed....i'm sure the cycle will continue tomorrow....Its not his fault...its mine.....
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| The week has begun |
[Jul. 7th, 2008|11:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My couch | ] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
So the wknd is over and the week has begun. To recap my weekend all i can say is i'm freaking SORE!! Not the good kinda sore but the sore like you get up at 5:45 saturday mornin and you don't back home and in bed til 11:30 at night. The reason:SOFTBALL. Hell thats a good reason for me. To be able to have the competition the relationships with your teamates, the feeling of knowing that your all in it together...What a great feelin. Didn't get out much this wknd cause of softball but when I did it felt different ..one day in perticular. I have Recently learned the feeling of jealousy. Its a feeling that i should not and do not like having. But its a feeling that i have to deal with. I won't dwell on it. It only upsets me. I will do what people tell me to and let life and Gods plan play out like its suppose to. This is gettin me down...Ok on to happier things FRIENDS.!! I love my friends. I will say its kinda cool to get up in the morning and see every spot in your living room and spare bedroom full of your friends. Cause they crashed at your place cause they got too drunk or partied too hard and don't wanna drive back to BFE. LOL. It makes you feel good it feels like a family in someways. I multi-racial family this past wknd..lol. Its after midnight and I am not tired but if i don't get my ass in bed I will be kicking the shit out of myself tomorrow. So I am outta here!!!!
I'll leave you with this:
Love sees sharply, hatred sees even more sharply, but jealousy sees the sharpest for it is love and hate at the same time......
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| I'm here |
[Jul. 1st, 2008|11:33 pm] |
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It has been a long time since I have posted..Alot has changed in a year..Why am I on here again you ask? Good question. I had forgotten how good it feels to just type out all my thoughts and leave them here. Trust me there have been alot of feelings and thoughts that i have let stay inside of me and it does me know good... So I'm back to lay it all here..Not tonight but in the coming weeks I am gonna be a talker this i promise..so if anyone wants to listen so be it..... Life is a ride...good and bad...decisions are hard ...but if you don't make them you will not go anywhere or be anyone..you cannot change who you are...what are priorities and how do you know if yours are in order?...How can one be a better person..by giving? by being more selfish? You cannot know the answers to life...if you did it wouldn't be life...
Just random thoughts......
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[Jul. 5th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
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Everyday i find myself judging someone ..not in a bad way more in a way of well i wouldn't do that in that situation i would do it this way.... Is that normal for someone to do or am i a prick for thinking like that? I didn't use to be like this damn people rubin off on me...don't get me wrong i'm not mean about it.. just here lately things have been gettin to me real easy...don't know why there is the whole truck gettin stolen thing but thats not it.. I can't put my finger on it. maybe the next time i start to do it i should just shut down my brain and look the other way...But is it in our nature to do that...to judge....?
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| life not blowing so much now |
[Jun. 30th, 2007|08:05 pm] |
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keeping it short and sweet...Truck was found minimal damage and in the shop getting fixed .....*sigh* |
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| Life Blow's |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|11:42 pm] |
Shit keeps happening to me ....bad shit...I haven't posted in forever.I have no excuse. I guess i didn't think i needed to get all of my thoughts out i guess i thought i should just leave them in my head but here lately i just don't want all these bad things to stay in there so i am here in hopes to get them out and leave them here.. I will give you the short version leave out alot of the details cause it only depresses me more. About amonth ago i wrecked my truck while it was gettin fixed i was borrowing my dads truck about 2 weeks after borrowing it it gets stolen at my apartment complex in Dallas... And yes there are gates and its at the top of a 5 story parking garage. Well after 3 weeks of it being gone the find it in north dallas and it can be salvaged and my dad is getting back tomorrow..yea i'm happy for him...alot has change for me in the past month since that my BF has got a great job and moved down here. This is the only bright spot of this post. yesterday we went to my company picnic got back to my apt around 5pm watch some movies took a nap and then headed to MY truck to go play tennis around 9pm(4 hours later). IT WAS GONE!!!!...what the fuck have i done to piss someone off be it god or another person...am i being taught a lesson or is it just fucking bad luck...I don't have an answer all people can tell me is well it could be worse or hey thats why u have insurance....Well yeah it could be worse and yea thats why i have insurance...Most of the people that know me know me as a positive person..and I am..but with persisting bad luck or whatever it is around me I find it hard to keep this positive outlook up...I wanna crawl in a hole and just die.....But there is a reason I don't it's for the same reason that people see me as a positive person...it's cause I am. I'm not posting this to get sympathy...cause all that will do is remind me how shitty things have been going for me. My post is simply to get it out of this noggin and try to move past it as much as i can...Will I still be down?...Yes Will i still be weary of Dallas? Yes.... I just wish the answers were easier to find but thats life. you never find the answer when u need it. And one more thing I'm sooo fuckign angry...but I don't know who to be angry at...The world, The situation, The fucking bastard or bastards that stole mine and my dad's truck.
Well I'm off to bed...
Thinking Postive........ |
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| Damn This Weather |
[Jan. 13th, 2007|08:37 pm] |
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So my weekend was gonna be great. Had tons of plans. It was all set up then BAM..this crappy weather. When your stuck at home all day it gives you way to much time to think. Not about one thing abunch of things. I have one of those pictures that of you stair at it you can see something in it.. you know the type where the image is hidden.. am I just retarded or is there nothing really there cause I have had this one for like 5 years and I ain't seen shit. After I got tired of that I moved on the the wonderful world of playing solitaire on the computer but I cheat and make it hightlight if I can put a card somewhere cause I'm lazy at that game and really don't want to think that hard. Oh god make this weather go away. Before I go crazy...too late alredy there.... |
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| Don't Procrastinate |
[Nov. 30th, 2006|05:52 pm] |
Just some words....
WHAT ABOUT NOW? what about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Before it's too late. WHAT ABOUT NOW? |
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